I am not the type of person that gets stressed. In fact, I usually perform best under a certain amount of pressure. I love deadlines, yes I am sick that way.
For the past few weeks at work, we have been going through what every company in America is doing right now - budget reductions. So, like three years ago - we will be losing some colleagues. In fact, we already have.
I have been dealing with that okay because I am a "scarlet o'hara" type person - if I can't change it - why worry about it? We all find out on March 27th who stays and who goes. I'll worry about it then. In the interim, I have plenty of work to do considering I do internal communications.
But with my mother being sick and in the hospital, the stress level has compounded. She is about 100 miles away from me and I feel helpless. If it was any other time, I would take a week off and go be with her. But being absent right now is not only impossible, probably not too smart.
Helpless is a feeling I don't like. I take extreme measures to never find myself in this situation. It is the worst feeling for me to have. I need a plan, a project, some path to resolution to follow. Sitting idly on my hands knowing I am needed somewhere else drives me crazy.
But I don't know how to fix it.
Monday, March 16, 2009
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Take comfort, mom is being with her as much as she can, and we are praying hard too! I think it is impossible for her to go see Wilma without taking food and cleaning something. That is just her way of showing love. Hold on, it will all work out.
Sorry for the rocky time. Hope Mom feels better soon, and you come out employed, in the end. I do the "why worry" thing too...at least about things that are absolutely not within my control. Took me awhile to get there, but I finally realized how much worrying I'd done in my life, for absolutely nothing, in the end.
G'luck!
mistylea: And I appreciate her so much. I'm just so dissatisfied with her care and current condition, but don't know what to do.
gnightgirl: I keep thinking of you through all this. You are so patient with your Mom and such a great caregiver. I fear I am not.
i feel for you....i know when my mum or dad or sister is not well it kills me that i'm so far away.
as far as the job goes, my fingers are crossed that you stay employed.
did you get your box? i sent it out last week.
Thinking about you and sending good thoughts your way.
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